This is what I asked myself today...why? :)...Because May 17th, 2007 was one of the crappiest, most depressing days in my life...but that is a different blog post :)Actually, I might have to write a book about that one, or submit an article to some kind of periodical (not that it would necessarily be published though:)...I often dwell on the negative, and believe me, there's plenty of it...but today I want to look at how my life has improved from that sucky day, and the progress I have made in one year...Here are some of the good things :)
1) I conquered my fear of computers. After dropping out of at least 3 computer classes over the years, I took Introduction to Computer Graphics at a community college up in Madison...Granted I freaked out, and had to get a tutor...but I finished the class, and actually am still using Photoshop! :)
2) I moved across the country...I still can't believe it...I'm a total chicken in most ways, but I decided to leave my state of origin, which I lived in my whole life ....and try something different...weeeeelll, I WAS going to go to graduate school, but then didn't....please refer to #3 directly below! :)...One intersting thing to note, is that my first FULL day in Georgia, was the very day my Saturn returned to it's exact point where it was on the day I was born...this happens only once every 29 years folks!...another post I should do I guess-- Saturn returns! :)
3) I recognized on the first day of graduate school it was going to be a very bad fit...by day 3 I was miserable and hated it...I then "declined to attend" the college, and got out before I lost a bunch of money and also my sanity...I felt very, very bad, guilty, and depressed about this at the time...I still occasionaly wonder what if, but I know in my gut...there's a better grad school out there for me-- and I would love to attend it someday! :)...perhaps I will elaborate on this more later, at some point...I will say it closed some doors, but opened others!
4) With new found time on my hands-- I joined Etsy! :)...I wanted to join Etsy when I first heard of it, in 2006...at that time, however, I did not possess the computer skills...How do you upload a photo? :)...At the time I did not know...and just what is "resolution"...:)...I'm still learning :) I still can't believe I have artwork on the internet :). I'm not a big seller, but the fact that I've actually put it out there, makes me really happy! :)
5) I realized who I am not, and who I will never be...I am never going to be a doctor, or a nurse, or a teacher, or a lawyer...or any of those other "white collar" professions...I did well in school, well enough to get a fellowship to that grad school I was going to go to...but it's just not me. I'm really an introvert, and I'm kind of an artsy, scruffy tomboy...I have a small group of friends and do like people, but am often very shy, and am not comfortable in social situations...I'm also not comfortable in "dressy" clothes...I'm kind of like a weird little hobbit creature who doesn't really fit into the world...Now with these traits, how could I have one of those above mentioned careers? ......I think I'm finally starting to except that I will never have one of the socially "acceptable" careers, even if my family can't accept it....
6) I'm starting to learn this blogging thing! :)...Now if I can just figure out how to cut and paste multiple pictures throughout one blog post, I'll be set! :)
Here's a question for you cyber space people..if anyone is reading...maybe not? Who knows...but just in case:
How far have you come in one year? Has your life changed for the better? :)
8 comments:
First off I want to say thank you sooooo much for the BEAUTIFUL paper. I love it!!!! I am sending you a goodie package out Monday.
Your post is intersting... but trust the older (isn't that supposed to make me wiser too!?) friend here ... we evovle in our 30s and nobody said in life we are expected to have a socially accepted career. But don't be surprised if your heart leads you in different directions over the course of the years ... it will and it won't be a bad thing. It may not lead you to a socially accepted career but it will tug you from time to time.
Probably none of that made sense but I am the unconventional social misfit with no desire to go with the flow.You can escape the flying monkeys and wake in a field of poppies... you know... just don't walk though life in disguise.
You gotta check this out Snitter! I got my third treasury in a week! These have been my first three tries!
http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list_west.php?room_id=10310
I'm so glad you like the paper!...and a goodie package?...Ooh! I can't wait! Gracias! :)...
You are wise Oz! I love that about you! :)...It will be interesting to see where my heart takes me :)...hopefully up into a log cabin with a dog! :)...Now if I only win the lottery or something! :)...Your advice makes sense-- thanks so much! :)...
Yeah for social misfits! :)
Your point Five hit me!
I've had the such epiphanies three times, twice in University and once in my late 20's. Those were hard times but the realisation is liberating. And "The road less travelled" is always hard for others to accept. Wishing you the best in 2008.
Gallery Juana
Oh Snitter!!!! I snagged another treasury!!!!!
http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list.php?room_id=45446
I updated my blog. Come look see.
OMG Snitterdog, knowing you from before and where you are now, I am impressed. You are you and that is what makes you a good person and friend.
Your post made me stop and think where I've been in the past year, and where am I going? My first sales on Etsy were last May. My little animals are all over the world, and I think I'm going to need to blog about this - to much to put in one comment on a blog for somebody that doesn't even know me! But anyway, I love hobbits and trolls and goats that live under bridges, so come visit!
sara
Wow...a hug to you and your accomplishments! You are a brave soul to have recognized who you are not and what you don't want to be.
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